I wish I didn't have to live anymore. I am tormented by the thoughts in my own freaking head and it is so hard just to get through the day. I reached my highest weight ever 226 and lost a few pounds with juice fasting.
I don't know how much I weigh right now because I haven't stepped on a scale in a week. I'm going to try to do a water fast or maybe start the abc diet again. I just need to stop being a disgusting fatty for once. I hate myself.