Saturday, September 21, 2013

Well at least its something...

Just as I thought, when I weighed myself 3 days ago I was 188 ); BUT I didn't get discouraged, I just kept plowing on through with my workouts and somewhat nutritious food. And guess what! The next day I woke up as 187 :D its little but its only the first step! I couldn't weigh myself yesterday because I only got 2 hours of sleep because I was up all night studying. Sigh. But I still went out running and I came home feeling sooooo accomplished. I ran one mile and walked one mile so I burned up some calories (: on my runkeeper app, they have different kinds of training plans and I wanted to pick one for a 5k, but they all cost money so I went with the 10k one instead O: it looks waaaaay harder. But as long as I stick with it, I could be slipping on size 0 jeans in no time (: plus I gotta lose 30 pounds by Christmas because that's when my cuddle bear comes back hehe ^__^ I wanna be smoking hot for our sexy time (; haha I'm so happy. I really do love exercising, its just willpower that I lack :P anyway I got to get to bed, I can't wait until I can weigh myself in the morning! :D

The first workout to my training plan is a 2 mile "easy" run...  This plan is exactly what I need to drop weight quickly. 

P.s. I got new running shoes!! 

Goodnight <3 

~xoxo anamia~

Tuesday, September 17, 2013


Sorry I haven't posted in a while guys, I've had a lot of bullshit going on. For the past 2 weeks or so I've been walking/running with my puppy almost everyday! but I've still been eating like the fucking fatty that I am. I honestly feel like I'm just a lost cause. Sure I'm exercising but my new pants don't even fit me anymore, what the fuck like seriously I'm such a failure. I ate like 3 fattening things today, but that's it. Tonight I'm gonna drink pickle juice instead of eating because it always makes me feel gross and bloated so I won't be tempted to eat anything else. I'm so tired of this constant fat battle. I have to train my body to not want fattening food. My mom said I'm starting to grow a double chin D: thanks for the love mom -__- I've been battling with depression again for the past 3 weeks and I'm seriously behind in my classes. I only have part of my first college essay done so far, I'm so behind. Now I have to worry about the stupid SAT's. words cannot describe my stress level right now. I'm tired and frustrated oh and I finally got my medication (both prescriptions) so now I'm having to adjust to that. I am having to deal with all the fucking side effects of the trazodone ALL OVER AGAIN. because my mother skipped an entire month of my damn prescription. So now I feel like a zombie and I've had a migraine for the past 4 days. Not to mention that I remain tired unless I get 12 hours of sleep. yes you read that right, I have to sleep for half a day in order to feel awake in the "morning"
I don't know how much I weigh but it's probably close to the high 180's. sigh. now you guys are gonna have to hear me groan about the whole weight loss process all over again lol but it will be worth it when I finally reach my goal!! woooooo

staying positive even though it doesn't sound like it :D


~xoxo anamia~

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

The visit with my boyfriend (:

We had an amazing time. We went to the beach, this beautiful outdoor mall, to the mountains, and other places too (: we spent his first day at the beach and we got so sunburn lol but we took care of each other and it was cute :3 I know its dumb to say but I honestly feel like we are meant to be. I dunno I just feel like its right, ya know?
I look like shit cause I'm sunburned in most of these pictures but we are still super cute C: