So yesterday i was thinking about how much i fail at life and dieting and i realized that if you tried once and failed there's no reason you cant try again so thats what im going to do. therefore i shall start the first day to summer vacation with my anorexic tendencies. i have it all mapped out and im stocked up on laxatives and these colon cleanse pills which are my moms but she doesnt use them. i have all my favorite thinspo websites tabbed and believe it or not i find watching food network is a great thinspiration because you get to see what food does to people. most people watch food network to listen on how to cook food but for me i dont pay attention to that i just look at the people that go on and on and on about food and see how disgustingly fat they are. i mean seriously the other day i was watching cupcake wars and the girl that made the cupcakes had love handles the size of texas. gross. i gained like ten pounds back out of all the weight i lost so im planning on slimming down MAJORLY. last summer i lost a lot of weight in only 1 1/2 months can you imagine how much i would lose if i start right now at the beginning of summer? like twice that cause its 3 months! damn im excited. anyway. i shall keep you updated.